Keiko's Journey

The Infertility Voice™ first started as Editor-in-Chief Keiko Zoll's personal infertility blog, Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed in 2009, shortly after her diagnosis of premature ovarian failure. Here is the record of her personal journey from infertility to motherhood from 2009 through 2013.

Dear Thyroid: You suck.

Dec. 21, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

My appointment with Dr. G was a disaster. Despite the dosage increase, symptomatically, I've felt the worst I've felt so far (horrendous brain fog, lethargy, sleepiness, coldness in hands and feet - the usual). And yet the numbers say the inverse: my TSH was 0.024 - well in the … Read More »

CD365

Dec. 21, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

You read that right: tonight marks Cycle Day 365... it's officially been a year since the start of my last period. I can't believe it's been a whole year already. CDs 1-4 were regular heavy flow and then... nothing. I thought for sure on CD15 I was ovulating - mittelschmerz and … Read More »

Brief Updates on Life

Dec. 17, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

Sitting in the BWI airport, waiting to fly home. Larry's great-aunt passed away Tuesday and we drove down from MA to NJ Wednesday night and then from NJ to MD for the funeral. I have to be at work tomorrow, so I'm flying back tonight and he's driving back in the late morning … Read More »

A Celebratory 100th Post

Dec. 10, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

I can't believe this crept up on me so fast. I can't believe I've written 100 posts since March... nuts. (Although really, this isn't shocking; the LiveJournal I kept for years amassed almost 1200 entries in about 4 years.) In celebration of this momentous occasion, I've got a … Read More »

Called me out.

Dec. 7, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

So I'm behind a few days worth of posts, but it's been an interesting few days. Larry and I (again) had another long discussion (read: late-night argument) about this rock and a hard place location I'm in where I need to find a job that actually stimulates and fulfills me but has … Read More »

Makin’ a list and checking it twice.

Dec. 4, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

So, if we want to get this "having a baby" party started, I'll need to have a few things in order. It is astounding everything we need to consider in the grand scope of things. And when I look back on it? I want to throttle my high school health teacher for spreading this notion … Read More »

Show & Tell 5: My Desktop Toucan

Dec. 3, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

This is my desktop toucan. In my head, I call him Toucan Sam. Original, right?He sits just under my computer monitor. I get a strange delight looking at him every day. If he went missing from my desk, I'd be pissed, and then very, very sad. I love this little guy. I don't keep a … Read More »

Is the chalice is half empty or half full?

Nov. 20, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

Allow me to indulge in a little tarot and my inner Goddess. This past Monday I went to the Salem Red Tent Temple. I've been a few times, and a good friend of mine (let's call her Honeybee) is one of the organizers. The concept is simple: mirror the ancient practice of women … Read More »