Healing

Move toward mindful living and coping via cathartic expression and emotional validation. May you find peace, joy, comfort, and light – wherever you are on your journey.

Stroking ego in the name of medical care.

Mar. 11, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

I call bullshit.So I got a second opinion about my thyroid & POF last month, and it's basically the same. Next steps: birth control for hormone replacement therapy, up the thyroid meds. Pretty S.O.P. So I send Dr. G an email asking about whether I need to schedule an appt to … Read More »

Let me show you my No Face.

Feb. 7, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

I was hoping to eventually title a post "Let me show my my O face" but sadly, looks like I didn't ovulate. Blood tests and u/s seem to indicate a big fat nothin is happening up in my lady bits. Dr. G put it so nicely in an email to me on Thursday:"The lab tests look no different … Read More »

Groundhog Day

Feb. 2, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

If the ultrasound sees a follicle, will there be six more weeks of winter?One tiny follicle. "Your right ovary looks quite good." This is Lesley, the supervising u/s tech, while Amy, the other tech, presses the dildocam against my already sore ovary. "There's no cyst?" I ask, … Read More »

Bingo cards and holding out hope.

Feb. 1, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

A cryptic blog post, yes. Allow me to explain...Larry got a call from a close friend of ours from grad school about some theatre related things, as these boys love to talk about. Surprise surprise, in the middle of the conversation, we found out they're due in April, first baby … Read More »

My Two Week Wait

Jan. 12, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

Ha! Gotcha didn't I?It's two weeks until my two-year wedding anniversary. It's pretty crazy to think that this time two years ago I was finalizing seating charts and making lots of illegal photocopies of wedding programs at work, and, amazingly enough, still tracking down RSVPs … Read More »

A donor for your thoughts.

Jan. 6, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

Please indicate your preference:hair color, eye color, location, highest education received, religion, race, ethnicity, height, etc.My future child is being determined by a basic sort formula in Excel.. . .Larry and I have begun to look at donors. We're not committing, by any … Read More »

Two dichotomous posts on parenting

Jan. 4, 2010 by Keiko Zoll

Two quick stories I wanted to share with two interesting takes on the limits of parenthood.1. A truly disturbing story from my current home state of Massachusetts: Mother of 9 claims she was sterilized against her will. Savicki acknowledged that some may feel little sympathy for … Read More »

Goodbye, oh nine.

Dec. 31, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

Out with the old,In with the new. Two thousand nine,I wash my hands of you.Onward and UP!ward.A blessed New Year to you all. … Read More »

Dear Senator Scott Brown

Dec. 29, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

I received an action alert email from a donor agency that Larry and I have been using to browse donor profiles. We haven't selected a donor, but it's a nice exercise in getting us at least mentally prepared for DE/IVF. The email linked to an article in yesterday's Boston Globe, … Read More »

Dear Thyroid: You suck.

Dec. 21, 2009 by Keiko Zoll

My appointment with Dr. G was a disaster. Despite the dosage increase, symptomatically, I've felt the worst I've felt so far (horrendous brain fog, lethargy, sleepiness, coldness in hands and feet - the usual). And yet the numbers say the inverse: my TSH was 0.024 - well in the … Read More »