Today’s Time Warp Tuesday post is focused on resolution. We should pull up a post from our archives that captures this theme and then reflect on our journeys since then.
Resolution. Such a loaded term in the infertility world.
Even after we have kids, are we truly resolved?
. . .
I was drawn to this post, The Big Decision: Building Our Family, written back in April of last year. (This was a few weeks before I made my What IF? video.) Here’s the bulk of what I had to say:
Over the past week, I’ve been becoming more and more comfortable with the idea of how we plan to build our family. We’ve teased it out to our families and one friend: everyone is supportive and excited for us. And in reaching this decision, I feel like a HUGE weight has lifted off my shoulders. For once in this crazy journey, things feel like they’re in focus and with clarity comes relief and excitement.
Oh, but I am being coy, aren’t I? ^_^
So… we’ve decided we’re going to adopt!
If you’ve been following along since then, you’ll know that we changed our minds.
What does this have to do with resolution?
Resolution sounds so finite when in reality, the way we build our families is truly continuously evolving and growing, as we hope our families do, too.
Right after I announced that we had planned to adopt, I had this to say:
This is not at all how I would have imagined building a family. And I’m okay with that; this past year has been highly introspective and I’m at a place of peace when it comes to grieving my infertility. From darkness, light: from despair- hope, commitment, action.
Interestingly enough, the way I feel hasn’t changed. Just our plans.
And even though we’ve not “formally” resolved, there is still resolution to be found in being comfortable with the path we plan to take.
It’s that resolution without resolution that still gives us hope.